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 Not so good day and Unpredicted happiness. Dear world I hope you do not read it I wanted to wear my favorite suit and go to class in a good dress and feel good but the exact opposite happened!!! Before I was checking my phone and just picked up  my phone the breaking news came.......... ' please come in semi formals today can be a photo and dropping the plan i went with a  blue t shirt and my wide blue pants. The first class happened and I was scolded and in on of the following classes teacher wanted me to leave the class because I was not making notes. Because it was turning out to be a bad day I resisted to not go but my groupmates said it would be fun and it will divert my mind. Agreeing to them I told myself to have and enjoy the rest of the day while I have ethe control and  it was actually amazing. we shared the food the laughs and bitched about people like some people. We were coming back to the university and I can only imagine what disappointments everyone ...

 this is day something but but for me it is going to be day 1. Dear World, (I hope you don't discover this)  I am sitting in my Sales and Marketing lecture. The guy who notices my move and reciprocating his observation I am doing it too. Did I come to class today? Why was I absent and why was I absent. He can be observable and he might not be. But this is my mind saying now. Well let's hope he does because little bit of attention doesn't hurt anyone. it's pleasure.  Well, I know there is nothing but who cares!  I am happy in my little world of awareness that he does when in actual he does not.  I am trying to explore. Because I did not have many options in my past or I did but was hesitant about it.  We are having our Role play as our assignment for the elective. we are the group of 4 people; 2 people being buyer and 2 people being the seller. We had obviously practiced it earlier but there where i was asking the question to the other team as the buyer and ...

to hate is too easy to love is easy to feel to be loved is difficult to love like the lover wants is most difficult its funny how important these emotions are to break two people and to break a relationship.

For any addiction to be removed  you need to know you have some addiction at the first place. Now! What I am suggesting is a bit tricky and risky. 1. Make a list of what do you think you are losing by using social media in excess. Does it hurt your eyes? does it hurt your hands? or does it hurt your brain? or your relationship?  Here comes the unreasonable illogical part.  2. Then use social media in excess like literally in excess. For example if you are using it for 8 hours a day now use it for16 hours. you will be so exhausted after this that you won't open Instagram or WhatsApp or you tube for the next 3 days at least.  The essence is you will use it to the point you hate even thinking of tapping on these stupid apps. little tip The shit on it is so repetitive you can remind yourself  'insta is so boring'

I was grieving. Somebody just died and I don't know who it was. It was a full moon night on the beach and as silent as ocean's bottom except for the only noise of water waves exploding into each other touching the shore. I was standing on the beach. There were two more people adjusting the big flag like banners of triangular shapes. They were adjusting it to form two edges of a door, a wide door whose one side will take you to the sea and the other side will take you to the land of humans. The flags were waving with the winds and with the music of waves. Here I was standing and listening and watching without any thought. My eyes were seeing but not watching , my ears were hearing but not listening, everything was moving and that was it. The mind was empty. The heart was feeling nothing except for the chill the cold air showering gracefully.  One of the banners had my name on it and the other had some other name which I do not remember. May be it belonged to the same person whos...

In the haphazard data of Internet it was always difficult for me to find a simple answer on how to be a good listener and how to be better at conversations. This simple questions answer came to me after reading books both fictional and non fictional, observing people linked as smart and making a fool out of me.  so the magical and not so magical answer is.... 1. Listen  Listen! just listen with no other thought in mind. do not think what the next work you will be going after the conversations or how boring the person is talking or what answer should you give after the conversation ends.    2.  Analyse Analysis seems like a big word to digest.  what does it mean actually? how should I analyse while having a conversation (after just reading the above second point).  What I mean by 'analyse' is to see do you think the other person speaking making sense to you!  and if the speaker is sharing some new information then do not analyse but listen ti...